Oct 8, 2018

تأملات في الأطفال

https://www.greaterthangatsby.com/newborn-essentials/
Adapted from Greater than Gatsby website



تذكرني السنة الأولى لحياة الأطفال بالفراش الطفل في الشرنقة

يولدون بأعين مفتحة وأصوات عالية
وكل ما يتلو ذلك تحديات ممتزجة بدهشة
التحدي في تحريك رؤوسهم الصغيرة تجاه النور و الدهشة في متابعة ذرات الغبار السحرية المتطايرة
التحدي في سحب المقبض الحديدي البارد و الدهشة في لمس المطر المتدفق من رشاش الحمام
التحدي في رفع أنفسهم للوقوف على طرف النافذة و الدهشة من العالم القابع خلف الزجاج


يلتصقون بنا
يضعون رؤوسهم الصغيرة لتحط في أحضاننا
ويمسكون بأصابعنا بأيديهم الصغيرة  
ليتحدون العالم
وليشاركوننا الدهشة

في نهاية العام و
 في نهاية السنة
في نهاية المطاف
ينطلقون الى الحياة
ينشرون أجنحتهم للتحليق في سماء الحياة
يخطون خطواتهم الأولى بعيدا عنا 
وسرعان ما يجرون بعيداً ليطاردوا أطراف قوس قزح


و نبقى نحن
متمسكون بملاءاتهم البيضاء في أيدينا 
 محتفظون بجواربهم  متناهية الصغر
ننظر لهم بدهشة 
غير مصدقين مقدار التغيير الذي أحدثه عام واحد 
ثم نقضي باقي أعمارنا في محاولة إعادتهم الى شرنقة العام الأول 



Oct 2, 2018

Stepping into life

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Today marks my day 284 in this world. I still remember my first day. My arrival was rough and uncomfortable. I was dragged out of my warm and cozy Mommy into a room full of big humans, surrounding me in a setting that seemed to be celebratory of my arrival. I truly did not want to leave Mommy, nor did I request such migration. There, was warm, comfortable, with pretty efficient food supply. I never had to demand food. It was freely provided upon my well. The outside world was cold, really really cold. It was shiny and noisy too. I had spent most of my life in Nebraska, but didn’t realize how cold it was until that day. The good news is, Mommy was still there for me. She hugged me and cuddled me in a skin to skin fashion. That was super awesome.

I was tired and exhausted and needed to sleep. Turned out, I could still sleep in the outside world, and I immediately passed out. Many big humans carried me and hugged me. I later learned that some of the big humans there that day were family. I didn’t know what that meant, nor did I care to be honest. Mommy was all I knew, all I needed, and all I loved. Despite all the ups and down I had to go through that day, one thing made my day. I finally saw how Mommy looks like. She is young and beautiful. I must admit, she is the most beautiful human I ever seen, not that I saw many. She has beautiful silky and brownish hair, like an angel. Trust me, I know angels because I had just come from heaven. She has a lively and gorgeous smile. When I grow up, I want to be as beautiful as Mommy.

As for the other big humans, they quickly started to grow on me. I was overwhelmed to realize this, but Mama Hanai was to be my second Mommy. She is the best. It became compellingly apparent from my first week on earth that Mama Hanai was much more experienced in this whole Mommy business than Mommy. She would take care of me when needed. Later in life, she would always be on my side. The other big human was Baba Adel, my best friend. I later discovered that he gets me the most. He would always play and laugh with me. He is very patient and loving. I think we have many things in common.

Anyways, back to the story. In my first day, I discovered crying. It is a physical activity, sort of an emotional burst to express and communicate hunger, tiredness, sleepiness, among other things. It was a great discovery, and boy did I overuse it?

Later that day while I was exercising my favorite activity of crying, a stranger walked in. He was baled and handsome. He initially ignored me and kissed Mommy. He kissed me and hugged me like I was his. That man was Daddy. He was kind and loving. I saw in his eyes that he loved me so much. He came from a very very far place we call home.

I must admit, I felt comfortable with him, but I had bigger problems to deal with. My free food supply was no longer there and I had to feed myself from my own mouth by latching into Mommy. It was so difficult and inefficient. But I seemed to have no other choice 😒. I failed and failed and finally succeeded. The world is a tough place, but Mommy was always there for me.

We left that that place they call Hospital and they took me home in a blue moving thing they call car.

Days after days and months after month, this beautiful and fascinating world is becoming more and more interesting to me. What a wonderful world it is. Every day, I would discover a new thing, a new song, a new color, and new food. One day, Baba Adel gave me lemon, and I loved it. I got the sense that it was supposed to be funny, but I didn’t know why. Big humans are quite strange.

The world has moving and flying things. How and why I am yet to discover. I have learned that big humans are no longer fascinated with the world as I’m, but I don’t think I will be any less curious as I grow up. Are you kidding? That plastic bag makes funny noises. That remote control has buttons to press. There are green trees and walking animals. But the most fascinating and wowing thing I ever seen is that magical machine, the iPhone. Oh that is my favorite by far. It’s a card that plays my favorite song هالصيصان and many others.

Daddy would disappear during day time and show up at night. I love it when he comes. He would play with me tirelessly. He makes me laugh. I laugh so loud with him. He would change my diaper while singing for me.

Later in life, daddy stopped showing up. But suddenly would pop up in the magical machine. I think it’s because we are back to Nebraska. I love to see him. He sings for me and laughs with me. But that’s ok. Baba Adel makes me laugh too. So I’m not complaining.

My body is growing and so as my ability to move. Which is great, because now I can reach stuff on my own. Big humans try to stop me from reaching things sometimes. But I don’t really care. I’m so excited to grow up and be with my lovely family. This world is a wonderful place. 😍

Iyad Aldalooj, A.K.A. Dad
September 14, 2018