Pearls of Personal Wisdom

"A moment that changed my life forever"  

I was lost ... completely lost.. 

Anxiety level was sky high, I barely could sit still 

And my heart was pounding so hard I wished I could stop it for just a moment  

I did not know where I was going with my life nor how to stop the tornado in my head

Yet, from the out side I looked so calm ,I spoke so calmly and I smiled 

At that moment, I told my self I had two choices , either to think and act or let the tornado carry me away 

I remember my exacts location in the park, when I told him:

We are in this car together, 

some times I will panic and you will have to drive, other time you will be paralyzed with fear and I will drive.. 

we will sing together, laugh, cry and fight  

but no one is getting out of this car.. 

we ride together in life …. 

I couldn’t believe I said that, I waited few minutes.. to comprehend it myself… it made so much sense… 

I did not think about it … it just came out…

And It kept repeating it self in my mind after that 

It is interesting how we say something and it resonates with us for a long time 

The moment I understood what I said was the moment I felt in control of my tornado … It was not going to carry me away anymore..  

Love made sense … partnership made sense .. and my whole life after that made sense.. 

More Secrets of Adulthood

Being an adult could be challenging at times, but mostly it is fun ....
The "Child me" can't help but to admire the wisdom the "Adult me" collected over the years.  So I decided to share more of my secret adulthood wisdom with the "Children you are"

Beautiful things are everywhere, you just need to see them

Think of others, and be thankful of what you have

Have compassion, even with the smallest creatures

We all get our share of happiness, we just need to appreciate it

Bad things happen, to all people and you are not an exception

Death is a part of life, the sooner we understand it, the happier we are 

سنة النماء 2015

في عامي الجديد تأثرت بكتاب " قواعد العشق الأربعون" لإليف شاقاف و قررت أن أشتق عنواني لهذه السنة من خواطر راودتني أثناء قرائتي لهذا الكتاب 

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يتفتق الفجر على حواشي غيمة تفيض بندفات ثلج صامت

و أنغام موسيقى صوفية تلهج بأصوات من الجنة 

الله أكبر 

يا رحمن يا رحيم 

يا رحمن يا رحيم 

ليذوب العشق في داخلي بكل شيء 

بمعشوفنا الأكبر 

بعشق الحياة 

بعشق البشر 

و عشق محبوبي الأبدي

تبدأ حركة دورانية تلفني بهالة صفراء 

بلون الشمس 

ولون خرزات متعاقبة في سوار يحيط بمعصمي

صفراء

بلون سنابل القمح النامية 

لتمنح أملاً لكل محروم 

تمتزج الهالة الصفراء مع هالة ارجوانية

بلون زهر البنفسج 

ورائحة اللافندر المختلطة برائحة الليمون في حمامي الصباحي

تحملني .. بحركتها المنتظمة 

الى حقول زهر البرتقال البعيدة 

و اسمع فيها .. صوت حبيبي الدافئ 

يهمس لي بكلمات العشق 

يلفتي العشق 

أغمض عيني 

لأعرف بأن كل شيئ في حياتي اليوم يتلخص في كلمة واحدة 

اكتبها بلونيها الأصفر و الأرجواني على مدونة سنتي الجديدة 

نماء 

For my beloved fiancé

Day after day ...
Season after season ....
days turn to weeks ... weeks turn to months ...
months turn to a lifetime ...

And I keep wondering ... about the reason for my existence ...
my long road ... to my true self ...
and my journey towards achieving my full potential in life ...

Passion ... sparks at moments ... to pull me to one direction ...
opportunity from the other side ...
Inspirations .... lead the way at times ...

But most importantly ...
the person ... that I share my lifetime with ...
The witness to my life ....
you .. "Iyadi"

From the Movie:"Shall We Dance"

My Secrets of Adulthood

Inspired by Gretchen Rubin and her book "The Happiness Project" , I came up with my own "Secrets Of Adulthood": 

• Life is not always rosy 
• The harder you work the luckier you get 
• To each his own
• Choose your fights carefully 
• Enemies do not exist, only people you can learn to forgive 
• No one is perfect 
• Change start from self 
• The more we accept ourselves, the more other people accept us
• Love brings more love
• A smile is the key to people's hearts 
• Self-regard is not selfish
• Feelings are a natural thing, how we go about them is the challenging part 
• Nothing is to be taken for granted 
• Life is long enough if you live it your way 
• We are more like others than we think we are 

The Rain of Fall

It is a rainy day 

First rainy day of fall 

I love rain 

Did I mention that I love rain 

About a thousand times perhaps

Up from the 9th floor I looked at the city 

East side of Baltimore 

Old houses 

Neglected homes 

Few trees 

Turning yellow

Cars of all colors and shapes 

Running down the streets 

Going home 

Picking up their children from school 

Visiting their sick ones in the hospital

Living life 

Clouds coloring the sky with different shades of white 

Rain 

Rain 

Pouring over the bare heads of people 

Over their colorful umbrella's 

And a warm feeling of harmony surrounds me 

It is the nature of life 

Change 

Seasons 

Rain 

Wetness and cold 

In appreciation of warmth and dryness

Fall
in a patient wait for Spring  

The Dream Catcher

Over my bed at home, there is a ring with feathers hanging from it

It has been hanging there for years, 5 years perhaps 

I often forget it hangs there ..but it never forgets I sleep under it

It is a dream catcher that I got as a gift from my father  

Being here.. thousands of miles away from home 

I found a dream catcher 

And hung it over my bed 

To bring me home .. in my dreams

The Happiness Project

So my wedding is in June , 8 months from now ? well being so busy with other "important stuff"I haven't been counting , and don't get me wrong I am supper excited about my wedding and my wedding dress , but I just haven't had time to sit with my self and organize my excitement 

 Last night I called my sister in low , who her wedding will be in March and she started talking to me about her dress and her shoes , and all those plans she made for her wedding 

So , I sat and I organized my excitement, and reached to a conclusion: Finding my dream wedding dress is one of the happiest and exciting moments in my life and it should be on top of my Happiness Project priorities 

So , I decided to make a Happiness document

Today's Happiness Picture

September

أيلول .. شهر التغير و التلون

حيث لا تخشى الأشجار فن الوقوع 

تنكسر الأوراق بإباء .... لأنها تعرف أن حلم الربيع آت 

The Month of yellow and orange trees 

let the Dreams come closer to me , let the leaves find a way to fall in a graceful way 

My Happiness Project

 I have been looking at the cover of this book for so long until one day I decided to buy it!!l

 Because I tell my self I don't have time to read, or perhaps because I actually enjoy listening to  

! Audi-books, I got the audio version.

 Three minutes listening to the book and I was completely hooked by the idea and decided to start 

my own Happiness Project   

Though I told my self , I think I am going through one of the happiest phases in my life

,waking up everyday with a big smile thanking god for his many blessings 

But I still thought I could benefit from starting my happiness project while I am happy , to keep  happy and be even happier day by day .

   Tribute to my wonderful Fiance who once told me " I am the Happiest man on earth"l

and Today I say " I am the Happiest Girl on Earth"l and I plan to keep on that title