سنة النماء 2015

في عامي الجديد تأثرت بكتاب " قواعد العشق الأربعون" لإليف شاقاف و قررت أن أشتق عنواني لهذه السنة من خواطر راودتني أثناء قرائتي لهذا الكتاب 

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يتفتق الفجر على حواشي غيمة تفيض بندفات ثلج صامت

و أنغام موسيقى صوفية تلهج بأصوات من الجنة 

الله أكبر 

يا رحمن يا رحيم 

يا رحمن يا رحيم 

ليذوب العشق في داخلي بكل شيء 

بمعشوفنا الأكبر 

بعشق الحياة 

بعشق البشر 

و عشق محبوبي الأبدي

تبدأ حركة دورانية تلفني بهالة صفراء 

بلون الشمس 

ولون خرزات متعاقبة في سوار يحيط بمعصمي

صفراء

بلون سنابل القمح النامية 

لتمنح أملاً لكل محروم 

تمتزج الهالة الصفراء مع هالة ارجوانية

بلون زهر البنفسج 

ورائحة اللافندر المختلطة برائحة الليمون في حمامي الصباحي

تحملني .. بحركتها المنتظمة 

الى حقول زهر البرتقال البعيدة 

و اسمع فيها .. صوت حبيبي الدافئ 

يهمس لي بكلمات العشق 

يلفتي العشق 

أغمض عيني 

لأعرف بأن كل شيئ في حياتي اليوم يتلخص في كلمة واحدة 

اكتبها بلونيها الأصفر و الأرجواني على مدونة سنتي الجديدة 

نماء 

For my beloved fiancé

Day after day ...
Season after season ....
days turn to weeks ... weeks turn to months ...
months turn to a lifetime ...

And I keep wondering ... about the reason for my existence ...
my long road ... to my true self ...
and my journey towards achieving my full potential in life ...

Passion ... sparks at moments ... to pull me to one direction ...
opportunity from the other side ...
Inspirations .... lead the way at times ...

But most importantly ...
the person ... that I share my lifetime with ...
The witness to my life ....
you .. "Iyadi"

From the Movie:"Shall We Dance"

لوصف زهر اللوز - محمود درويش

من ذكرى محمود درويش 

لأن غيومنا الرمادية .. تحتاج كثيراً من الشمس ... وجرعات من الحب .. لتنقشع 

My Secrets of Adulthood

Inspired by Gretchen Rubin and her book "The Happiness Project" , I came up with my own "Secrets Of Adulthood": 

• Life is not always rosy 
• The harder you work the luckier you get 
• To each his own
• Choose your fights carefully 
• Enemies do not exist, only people you can learn to forgive 
• No one is perfect 
• Change start from self 
• The more we accept ourselves, the more other people accept us
• Love brings more love
• A smile is the key to people's hearts 
• Self-regard is not selfish
• Feelings are a natural thing, how we go about them is the challenging part 
• Nothing is to be taken for granted 
• Life is long enough if you live it your way 
• We are more like others than we think we are 

The Rain of Fall

It is a rainy day 

First rainy day of fall 

I love rain 

Did I mention that I love rain 

About a thousand times perhaps

Up from the 9th floor I looked at the city 

East side of Baltimore 

Old houses 

Neglected homes 

Few trees 

Turning yellow

Cars of all colors and shapes 

Running down the streets 

Going home 

Picking up their children from school 

Visiting their sick ones in the hospital

Living life 

Clouds coloring the sky with different shades of white 

Rain 

Rain 

Pouring over the bare heads of people 

Over their colorful umbrella's 

And a warm feeling of harmony surrounds me 

It is the nature of life 

Change 

Seasons 

Rain 

Wetness and cold 

In appreciation of warmth and dryness

Fall
in a patient wait for Spring  

The Dream Catcher

Over my bed at home, there is a ring with feathers hanging from it

It has been hanging there for years, 5 years perhaps 

I often forget it hangs there ..but it never forgets I sleep under it

It is a dream catcher that I got as a gift from my father  

Being here.. thousands of miles away from home 

I found a dream catcher 

And hung it over my bed 

To bring me home .. in my dreams

The Happiness Project

So my wedding is in June , 8 months from now ? well being so busy with other "important stuff"I haven't been counting , and don't get me wrong I am supper excited about my wedding and my wedding dress , but I just haven't had time to sit with my self and organize my excitement 

 Last night I called my sister in low , who her wedding will be in March and she started talking to me about her dress and her shoes , and all those plans she made for her wedding 

So , I sat and I organized my excitement, and reached to a conclusion: Finding my dream wedding dress is one of the happiest and exciting moments in my life and it should be on top of my Happiness Project priorities 

So , I decided to make a Happiness document

Today's Happiness Picture